Experimental AF

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Many moons ago, my mom invested in the Academy of Remote Viewing and Influencing (AVARI) program, and I remember giving it a brief go back then (2005, maybe?) thinking that it would help me meditate "right." I gave up for a variety of reasons, but chiefly because I was trying to listen to the sessions on CDs in a Discman (yeeeaaahh...) that kept skipping and pissing me off - totally not conducive to a great meditation session. How the heck am I going to be able to tap into the Universal Mind like that?!

Two-ish weeks ago, I decided to revisit this. J and I have been focusing our energies (or trying to focus) on the law of attraction, manifesting, raising consciousness and vibrational frequencies and all that jazz for the past 9-ish months, and I was reminded of AVARI and thought it would be interesting to experiment doing this as a team.

I forgot how weird it is, listening to the sessions with the sometimes chaotic combination of sounds and Gerald O'Donnell's voice (I find myself getting so distracted trying to place his accent), and yet - I almost always fall asleep in the first 10-15 minutes. LOL. 😴 I know they say that your subconscious is getting what it needs from the sessions whether you are aware of it or not. I am very much not! But, I have noticed a change in my sleep, and have been having very vivid dreams. I thought it might be interesting to document this whole process, document the dreams, and see if any puzzle pieces start coming together about, if nothing else, the inner workings of MY mind. Buckle up, I guess!

I got a few sessions ahead of J (it's hard to keep track of who is doing what when you're sharing a log in for the online portal), so I'm going to start over until I know we're back at the same session (7, I think).

Before I start over tonight, a dream I already had:

I'm in a Meijer, or Target-like store that I don't really recognize. I'm wandering, unfamiliar with where things are located, and find myself in an aisle of greeting cards. I wonder what the next holiday is, it must not be important to me. I hear a voice say my name, and turn to see AC, and he reaches out and wraps me up in a big bear hug. It feels so comfortable and natural, I can't help but lean in to it. He asks me how long I've been here (where? the store?) and I say not long. He laughs and asks what brought me to Utah (?), and I say something about needing to see the mountains for awhile. We chat for a few, walk out together, and I see him drive off like a bat out of hell in a red '80s-era Camaro. The shopping center is overlooking a scenic mountain view, that could very well be Utah.

I remember what I needed to buy at the store and walk back in - this time I see PM, and he's pulling his cart from the front [when I relay this dream to J later, he laughs and says he's actually doing that while he's at the store as we speak- I have never seen him do this]. I realize he is seeing me, but pretending not to - so I give him a side eye and he ever so slightly gives me a wisp of a head nod. Not too far behind him is RC, and I'm wondering - did everyone move to Utah? If they are here, why the hell would I be?

As I wake up, I have this very vivid memory of running into PM and RC in the local campus bookstore a year or so after we graduated - PM watching me look for a book from the other side of the shelf/aisle, and me looking up in surprise and seeing both of them (they were working there, I think). We chatted for a minute, and then I was caught off guard (in the best possible way) by AS, a new friend I'd met the semester before, who hugged me, gave me his number, and I never even said goodbye to the other two. Oops. 😬

My take away from this one is a significant, long-forgotten memory being uncovered - especially considering recently I've been contemplating if I'll ever get to a point of being a hugger again. Hmm...