Blurry AF

I'm no stranger to the concept of vision boards, manifesting, and the law of attraction stuff. It's weird, though, to flip through a stack of old magazines and see very little that seems to resonate with you in images. I've said for awhile now that my "visualizer" is broken - meaning I have a really hard time visualizing the things I want to manifest in my life. I can write it in words easier than I can picture it, for some reason - when I actually sit down to write it or think it out. I can feel it, but shit, my vision is blurry af if I try to see it.

I have vision boards going back to 2009. It's always an interesting exercise, since I usually don't go into it seeking anything specific to pull from the page - I just collect things that jump out at me and try to make sense of why after the fact. Maybe this is a "wrong way" to do this, but I look at it more like an attempt to interpret my subconscious (weee!). Let's look at this most recent one I did on New Year's Eve (day):

• Well, hey, there's Ben Affleck sitting on the couch eating a bowl of something. There's a photo of him and his holiness, Matt Damon, when they won their Oscars for Good Will Hunting. Surrounded by words - Good News! Share Joy. Careers on Fire. Dream Big. Love is in the details. I am very passionate about dreams with friends - seeing, helping, co-creating dreams with people I love. I always wanted to win a Best Original Screenplay, too. I think that's what Ben represents here - success shared with friends.

• There is a lot of imagery of nature and scenic views. Give me all of it. Give me mountains, give me oceans, give me trails and trees. Give me an open road, a bike, and a boat. Give me adventure. That's easy enough to understand.

• The dudes don't mean anything specifically - a cute guy that loves dogs never hurt anyone, right? Especially one with a soft spot for pitties. ❤️ I'll take being 2nd bestie to a furball, if I must. 😂

• "Grow with the Flow..." I think that's my favorite phrase on this one. I've been focusing on being intentional with the types of things I want to grow in my life, and most importantly which things to continue to water, and which to let dry up and die - especially all these passive relationships in which I find myself playing a part. How hard is it to make plans? I just made dinner date and it took all of three texts and maybe five minutes. Wasn't hard work, and even though I'm also busy af, I make time for people I care about. But...sometimes I'm the one that needs watered (and that's not innuendo, unless you want it to be....LOL).

Well, there you have it. I'm actually leaving this board out for awhile instead of throwing it in the back of my closet. Need that inspo to actually write that screenplay. Maybe Ben will wanna direct? #dreams